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Spent most of yesterday at the hospital with mum.

She started thinking I was an imposter earlier in the day and that my dad was trying to rape me, my dad called round all the psychiatric units but they again said there was nothing they could do unless she was threatening to hurt herself or me.

Eventually one said to call the police, so they showed up and took us to hospital in an ambulance. It was so embarassing having all our neighbours staring. Not to mention I didn't have time to get dressed so I was in pjs and a dressing gown with a coat covering me all day.

They finally committed her at about midnight. As no one was looking after her, I had to stay with her so didn't get anything to eat until I got home about 1 in the morning.

I felt really guilty about how relieved I felt, not having to deal with her. It felt weird for the first time in two weeks not having to block the front door and feel all anxious not knowing what she would do.

I couldn't sleep I was so hyper, finally got off about 6 this morning.

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weird_fin
Mar. 8th, 2012 04:26 pm (UTC)
At last some rest for you.
*hugs*
bastetseye
Mar. 8th, 2012 04:46 pm (UTC)
Thanks.
noybusiness
Mar. 8th, 2012 04:27 pm (UTC)
*hugs*

I can't imagine how horrible this is for you.

You shouldn't feel guilty about feeling relief. I mean, I know I'd feel guilty about feeling relieved too, but the relief is perfectly natural for someone who's been through what you've been through, and the situation is not your fault. Frankly, you deserve a break from it.
bastetseye
Mar. 8th, 2012 04:50 pm (UTC)
Thanks.

I think I've just spent the last two weeks just getting on with and not really thinking or feeling too much, (after all it wouldn't do to have two crazy people in the house!) that it's only just really hitting me now, and however illogical they are, I'm just really feeling a whole gauntlet of emotions.

It doesn't help that that's how it works for me, I get stressed so I shut down, while I'm shutting down the emotions build up behind the metaphorical curtain in my brain, then I end up having a meltdown with them all spilling out at once.
noybusiness
Mar. 8th, 2012 04:52 pm (UTC)
Also natural. Just go through it.
shinyopals
Mar. 8th, 2012 07:23 pm (UTC)
*Sends hugs* I'm sorry. :( I hope she gets the help she needs.
bastetseye
Mar. 9th, 2012 12:52 am (UTC)
Thank you, me too.
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