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I'm having a horrible time of it at the moment.

My mum appears to be suffering from some kind of mental break she's spent the last two weeks thinking someone was at the door trying to set it on fire, hearing voices and last night was taking away to people that weren't there.

I've hardly had a good night sleep since it started and have taken to barracading the door to prevent her from walking off in the middle of the night. I can't leave the house, not and leave her alone, and since she hates my dad I can't leave her with him, so he's having to do all the shopping. But I can't get out to get my checks (some of which I have to get reissued now) or pay the phone bill. I'm agorophobic, but this may cure it!

The doctor says there's nothing he can do till the psychiatric people evaluate her sometime this week (he said that last friday) so in the mean time I'm left alone with her, terrified of what's going to happen next, and feeling really let down by her doctors.

I mean how is it okay that I'm left to look after her all on my own, it can't be good for her, and if I have to keep giving up sleep and going through the stress of all this IM going to ask them to commit ME just to get a break!

Anyway sorry just wanted to get that out.

I miss going to my maths class, (I had to miss it today).

I just feel really depressed about it all and am wondering now over my life at how many other episodes, milder though they may have been, that she may have had that I didn't notice.

She sleeping now, but my stomach is literally clenched  and I'm shaking over what she'll be like when she wakes up.

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noybusiness
Mar. 6th, 2012 03:07 pm (UTC)
Do they even know what you're going through? This sounds like an ongoing emergency situation, in which case there has to be some emergency service you can call on, whether from the hospital or the police or whoever you contact by calling the emergency number. Maybe you need to be forceful with the people you are talking to?
bastetseye
Mar. 6th, 2012 03:33 pm (UTC)
My dad's going to call her doctor himself, so hopefully that might do something. They say since she doesn't appear to be a physically threat to herself or to me there;s nothing they can do until she gets evaluated which will be sometimes this week. Which could be anything from today til friday.

I've spoken to a psychiatric nurse, her Doctor, an oncall doctor (that I had to call at 3 this morning) and social services and they've all said there's nothing they can do until she's seen.

I've tried being forceful but it's hard for me, I'm not good at confrontation, or at speaking on phones, and I'm sleep deprived, so that can't help.
shinyopals
Mar. 6th, 2012 06:13 pm (UTC)
:( I'm sorry. I hope things look up for you soon. *Sends squishes if wanted*
bastetseye
Mar. 6th, 2012 06:15 pm (UTC)
Thank you, squishes very much accepted.
cassandra_elise
Mar. 8th, 2012 02:40 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry to hear that, hon. I really hope the doctors can help her. In the meantime, hang in there and know your friends are thinking of you. *hugs*
bastetseye
Mar. 8th, 2012 02:57 pm (UTC)
Thank you.
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